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Thursday, March 2, 2023

 

COPING WITH EMOTIONS 

Post 11 - March 2nd 2023


Emotions and life ... food, fun, good times, laughter and tears


Emotions can sometimes simply overwhelm. Emotions can be difficult to navigate when they creep into your thoughts and emotions can simply stop you in your tracks.

This Lewy Body Dementia journey for me can at times become very emotional. It is the major down side of what is happening in my mind.

I have always had a strong sense of humor, got that from my Dad, laughter really is the best medicine particularly when the difficult times present. Throughout my life I have used humor to counter many tougher times, getting people to laugh really does help deflect away from things that are getting to you emotionally.

Humor and laughter lighten the mood but as an added bonus it can also turn the whole mood around in a very positive way.

At this point in time my battle is the little demons who bring me down as I transition from my old ways into this new LBD person. I know that eventually this cognitive health problem will close me down. I simply don't have forever, the changes in this head are starting to become more prevalent and that can make for times of crappy emotion. It brings on the tears.

Staying positive and active is all good. It is really important, and it helps this journey have a social and inter-reactive side to life. I like that.

But just at this minute the LBD transition is headed into an area where the thought process gives rise for me starting to find it challenging trying to accept what is coming next.

As I have written before in previous posts I am still doing ok, in fact I'm doing good, things are going along fine and while change is happening it has been relatively orderly and slow. I have kept a lid on emotion through remaining positive, through humor and knowing that Ruth and I still have a lot of good times ahead.

We will make every post a winner and stay present in life.

Look, I am still a long long way off being lost in my own mind, yet this past few days have fully tested my emotions and things are bubbling over. I am getting emotional with me and that brings about these fits of tears and sadness and I am not doing so well when that happens.

As an added bummer, being unwell with my ongoing tummy problems is stressful. A couple of ops in the last month, time in hospital, doctors prodding and poking at me, the anaesthetic and medication is all building and the pain and discomfort throughout this time is really testing my resolve.

It is definitely not helping my head to be in a good spot.

So yeah, that tummy infection issue is clearly not sitting well emotionally, it is as said becoming awkward and testing. I am so over this darn infection and discomfort.

On Saturday Ruth and I had a full day at Morphettville racecourse as part of our racehorse ownership group with our galloper Team Captain. The day was hard, sore and rather tiring but mostly manageable. Strategies and planning for a day like this really do make things a lot easier.

I was able to enjoy the day out at the track on Saturday, good times with the racing and so many great people to share the experience with.

But the downside is in recovery. Sunday was a total down day, rest and recovery took center stage,

And here is a big part of the emotional fall-out.

It's the difficult emotion of accepting where things are heading. Once I breezed through this type of day, recovery was never needed. So yeah, older age means some slowing down but for me knowing how I had to use all my energy and savvy to survive yesterday is a real downer. Emotionally rather awkward.

I made a few mistakes at the races; I got confused a touch and really battled to stay totally focused in conversation and in company.

Not really all good with that, not good with that for me personally.

So, that line which is becoming a favorite, 'I am not being judged by others, but I am being judged by me' really comes in to play on these days as a social outing.

Now, with that, going forward, I question, do I continue and have fun times of do I retreat and sit tight?

What I do know is I have to trust in myself to do what I can about being relevant and present without being exposed to times of trouble and unsafe practice.

Staying in life is the obvious answer, enjoy what you can when you can and the road trips that Ruth and I so enjoy need to continue. Just keep things safe and make sure the planning and strategies are in place and for now that is how it will be.

But this emotional outpouring is getting troublesome. Maybe it is something I can get a lid on, maybe as it happens, and I am aware of it then I can keep it under control.

It is something shared only in private to this point, yeah, for now on the outside I am keeping it hidden.

Will leave it here, that's this post done, thanking you for checking in, really appreciate that.

Go Cats.

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